depression — Musings

Small Fires

Coming-of-age is hindsight, in truth. By the time you realize it’s happening, you’ve already been irrevocably changed.

MusingsA. MartineApril 19, 2019coming of age, smiths, grief, childhood, anxiety, isolation, depression, growing up, vanish, kidnappingComment

Falling In Love With the Women Who Taught Me Not To Be Nice

It took me nearly two decades to unlearn the lie we women have been told: that our propriety is the only thing that matters.

MusingsA. MartineDecember 9, 2018pop culture, popular culture, television, film, music, daria, daria morgendorfer, jessica jones, sexual assault, sexual trauma, metoo, timesup, rizzo, grease, sandy, problematic, coming of age, composure, nice, double standards, sexism, misogyny, pippi longstocking, lisbeth salander, millennium, stieg larsson, arya stark, game of thrones, george rr martin, resting bitchface syndrome, rbs, womanhood, woman, girl, girlhood, assault, abuse, anxiety, adulthood, beauty standards, childhood, curiosity, depression, decorum, extrovert, introvert, introversion, introverted, exploration, self-love, self love, yes, mental health, recovery, self-care, mental illness, fixation, suffering, self care, friendship, self-loathing, self-image, growing up, honesty, heritage, shy, shyness, introspection, literature, kindness, loneliness, memoir, no, neurosis, unconditional love, openness, patience, pain, pathology, quiet, restlessness, romanticization, romanticize, trauma, crying, suicide, sensationalize, teenagehood, turmoil, extroversion, twenties, social experiment, glamorize, glamorizationComment

To Hell With Composure

Composure is what is leant upon when one understands that the world has no place for someone who is falling apart, quietly or in all manners of slovenliness.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Was The Therapist I Needed as a Child

I found more solace and understanding in the pages of these books than I did looking up at people who didn’t always get me, or want to deal with me — understandably.

A Year of Saying Yes, A Year of Saying No

I have finally understood that I don’t need to justify myself to people: I am simply finding different ways of saying ‘yes’ to myself, by saying ‘no’ to others.

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